The riddle

Long since I updated, well I think I only update when something inspires me, a msg from God perhaps. So the thing that gave me inspiration is the song "The riddle" from Five for Fighting. A great song like all the other songs of theirs that top the charts. So the chorus here hits me where I will relate to the message that I am soon to share.

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

So do we really know our reason being in this great big world that God made? Some of us know, some of us are still searching. For those who know, is it really your reason being here? One thing is for sure, we who believe in God will receive that reason because God created us for a reason. That reason is something that we should do, our purpose here shall be done only by us. Each of us have a different purpose, if we sway away what will happen to God's great plan for this world? I wish to know but why make your own purpose for yourself when God already prepared one for you. God always knows what's best for us, by following that purpose, we are walking a path that has been made for us. Everything is laid down, all we have to do is follow. While God walks in front, we only need to follow. Sounds easy huh? I guess it is easy, like I've said there will be hard times but God prepared it therefore He will lead you through it.

Having said all these do I have proof? I do, what I am going through now is proof enough that God has made a plan for me. Sometimes you'll have this feeling that you do not know where you are going but at the same time you know where ever it is, its a wonderful place. I'm following Him and my life have been filled with much joy, every hole I fall in, there is a reason for it and I learn from it. This life of mine have never been better ever since the day I gave it all to Him, My Lord , My Saviour. When I felt that God was not leading, He has reassured me that He is by someone who prayed for me.

Anyway aside from my spiritual journey, I am currently working on the environmental website that I said I will. Things are ok for now, I have made a temporary website. check it out when I am online,
http://sonea.no-ip.org/ecophesto

Nothing there yet, because I am working on the admin functions. Soon we will implement the user function after we settle our interface design. My birthday is coming soon :P, 4th of Nov, lucky for me it's a saturday. So I'll be having a small celebration only with a few friends over, hope to see them soon. It's the holidays and here I am pondering on something fun :P. Nintendo dslite, yeap that is something that I wanted for quite sometime, saved for it, gonna get it next monday where my dad will chip in half while i pay the other half. My birthday present for myself and half from my dad :P

Will update once i get that console of mine :P

Life goes on...

There are many struggles in life, mine are not as bad as what other ppl have. People who have cancer, AIDS, I think their struggle is so much different and difficult than the struggles of a student. Cancer patients struggle to stay alive as well as AIDS patient. Some AIDS patient have to struggle to be accepted in the society, many of them are being looked down, we should show more love to children with HIV positive, its easier said than done becoz of the fear of being infected. Other struggles of HIV ppl is to earn money for their medication, medicine that will prolong their life.

So what are my struggles that made me despressed? heartbroken, lost and no sense of identity. These struggles are normal for most people, so how dare I say it's difficult compared to other ppl who are in much worse situation than I am. Struggles like mine can be taken away easily, the key? To seek God. I have learnt many lessons in life from the Holy Bible, and I am sure that these struggles are things that God wanted me to go through and He will lead me through it. There is always a lesson that God is teaching, these struggles are used to mold the person who we are going to become. We have to change to be prepare for God's plan for us.

I do not know where I am going but I'm taking step by step and God is holding my hand and assuring me that everything will be ok. The heartbreaks, the emptiness and not knowing who to be, God taking it away one by one. I wish I could get rid all of it at once but through time is where I'll learn my lesson from my Father. We should always be thankful from the position that God has put us. IF you are reading this then you are definetly in a better position than those who struggle for life, food and from poverty. Thank God everyday! Give God your life, He will run it better than we do.

My fav song from paradise live newest album "Set Me Free": Assuredly Yours

All that I am is in you
All that I seek is to follow You
I run to Your side when You call
There is the hope I am longing for

Just to be by Your side
There is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom I'll find

chorus:
Take my life
and all that i have to give
Take my world
just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams
make me assuredly yours

What a wonderful song!! It certainly says it all in my heart. Will you let God take your life? He is waiting and all you have to do is open that door. Life is so much interesting with God by your side. He is always there looking upon us. There will be good and bad times but that is what God wants you to go through and He will be there with you all the way.

Getting to know you

Anyone remember this song? Here is the chorus:

Getting to know you,
Getting to know all about you,
Getting to like you,
Getting to hope you like me.

It's a song from The King and I. It hit me when I realise that I dont know God well, how to be close to someone to not know that person. The same thing goes for my friends that are around me. How much do I really know about everyone? I found out that I know little of everyone in my life.

Getting to know you,
Getting to feel free and easy,
When I am with you,
Getting to know what to say ,

The second part of the chorus tells me that I wanna be like this with my friends. I dont really know all the likes and don't likes of theirs. But this holiday I will get to know my friends better. Their real character, you cant really see it in college because we're only there to study. We have never talk bout ourselves or people have never ask about you. I also wonder does my friends know me? What kind of person am I? I know but some people might not see me like that. This holiday I also want to find myself, I am kinda lost here. I dont know where to go and what to do. These are things that nobody can tell me, and so I pray that God will lead the way.

I wish I could describe how i feel now but it's hard. It seems that only God knows what is wrong with me. I really want to give everything to God but there is something holding me back. I know what it is but i have no idea how to deal with it at all. I'm so lost, Haihzzzzzzzz

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Haha, so lazy to update, well saturday my childhood friend and his dad came to have dinner with my family. After that we went to jazz musical festical with them :D. My dad cooked us dinner, he got lazy and used the oven so the food was not as good as he wanted :(. But then again it's good food :D.

Well at the jazz musical festival, i bought secret reciper chocolate indulgence coz my sis wanted and it was so sweet . So she ate most of it then we went to buy starbucks drinks :D. After that sumthing funny happened to me, i sat at my mom's seat and when i lean back i fell down :(. Coz the leg of the chair got caught in a hole :(. So humiliating and so hard to get up. My family and my friend had a good laugh though :D.

Sunday i think i stayed at home and felt tired to do anything, sleep alot though :P.

Yesterday nothing special. Today also nothing much, but then again there are assignments to rush again yet i feel so relax :P. I wonder why, i guess i know it's best not to mention why. I will keep it to myself unless sumeone ask me why lor :D.

Dunno wat to really put in here, there are many things but at the same time i dun feel like it is right to put it here coz it might not be my business. But i feel that it's hard sumtimes to help ppl becoz we're so blinded by things that are wrong sumtimes. We try to help but then again that someone might not need our help or it's just hard to reach him/her. I know how it feels now becoz sumtimes ppl try to help me but i cant see how they can help, they dun mean any harm but they really care for me :D. Thank you my friends who try to help me in this tough period :D. Why tough?? My close friends know why so i wanna say thank you for being by my side, it is tough but i was glad that u were there for me, God too :D