10 random facts about me

It's already October, I just feel that time flew too fast and I didn't achieve much in the past 9 months. Looking back at my resolution for the year I know I failed terribly. I have no excuse at all, I always am motivated for a month or two and then it just dies down. The fire within me was not strong enough and that is such a bad thing to ignore. Today suddenly I thought of writing about myself but I was at work so I'm blogging after I'm back. It's funny and kinda hard to think what facts I should put in this post that people don't already know. So here I am feeling a bit brave and telling the "world" who I am if my writing doesn't reveal much.

1. I'm totally afraid of snakes and if I see a picture or any snakes on the TV, I'll be haunted in my dreams. It's scary and I can't bear to see real ones even with just a glass in between at the zoo. 
2. I'm Chinese but my mandarin level is as good as a 10 year old and I can't write much anymore.
3. I used to learn ballet till grade 3 but was stopped because the teacher complained that I talk too much which disrupted the class.
4. I talk gibberish in my sleep and can't recall that I did it in the morning. Sometimes I engage in a short conversation with my sister but I also can't remember it.
5. All my soft toys are animals because I'm afraid that dolls will turn into Chuckies.
6. I'm afraid of heights hence I don't go on roller coasters, usually start shaking in a Ferris wheel, and can't cross a bridge that can swing a bit.
7. I used to role play with my sister and cousin brothers as Sailormoon and Power Rangers when I was in primary school.
8. I love potatoes more than rice (being Chinese rice is like their essential food) and I can live without it.
9. I'm a prankster when I was younger and it was bad. Once I stapled my friend's water bottle and remove the staple to make water leak out. Another terrible thing was I threw water at my friend's cubicle while she was in the toilet and ran away without them knowing.
10. I love dogs but I can't stand to be licked by it.

There it is 10 facts about me and I hope you had fun reading it. I'm sure you are now thinking how I was as a child, and you're right that I'm quite mischievous but let me tell you I'm also quite nerdy. Thinking back was fun and I would like to have that much of fun without worries at all. 

Japanese Word of the Day - 31 to 35

There are 24 hours a day, 8 hours of work, 8 hours of sleep and the rest are just for other stuff such as eating, traveling and etc. But I don't know why I can't keep myself up to date with my Japanese learning. If I have to analyse properly, I have to be honest and say I spent a lot of my time watching YouTube videos, watching TV series and playing with my handphone. Sometimes I do wonder what I'm doing, thinking of what to do when I have things to actually work on. I lack motivation in a lot of matters in life and tend to go the easy way out which ends up with me being lazy. I have this inspiration app on my phone that reminds me everyday that in life without hard work there is no success, it also reminds me to chase after my dreams. To make my dreams come true I need to put in a lot of passion, effort and determination. Life is short and while I'm still young I feel it is time for me to put in my best effort to make sure my dreams come true. There is no time to waste and I will try my best to live the fullest. So today to catch up with my Japanese learning I will pick those 5 words from this short paragraph that I've written here.

1. Motivation -  Dōki,  動機
2. Passion -  Jōnetsu,  情熱
3. Inspiration - Hirameki, ひらめき
4. Effort - Doryoku,  努力 　
5. Determination - Kettei,  決定

Tragedy strucks, but people still....

We all know last friday Japan was struck by earthquake and then a terrible tsunami hit Sendai. It was horrific looking at the videos, the way the sea easily washes buildings, cars, boats and other objects away. The damage from the tsunami was worse than the earthquake. Many Japanese who witnessed and lived through the tsunami are still traumatized by what happened. It had damaged the country so badly that they now have power crisis. They will have to do rotation in blackouts because the lack of power due to damage to their nuclear plants.

As a person who lived far away I feel helpless and the only thing we can do right now is keep praying for them and donate money. But during this crisis there are still people who have many opinions and say things that are bad. It sounds as though they have no compassion for the people there. Here are some links:

• http://ireport.cnn.com/docs/DOC-571969
• http://ireport.cnn.com/docs/DOC-570978
• http://www.freemalaysiatoday.com/2011/03/15/green-rosmah-hit-by-twitter-tsunami/
• http://religion.blogs.cnn.com/2011/03/15/tokyo-governor-apologizes-for-calling-quake-divine-retribution/

These are just a few that happened but there was many more. This is how Google is helping Japan. http://www.google.com/crisisresponse/japanquake2011.html.  Please have a heart 10USD is not a lot just donate if you have more donate more. 

Entertainment or life lessons???

Since I don't have a job yet I have plenty of time to spare :P. Lately I have been watching a lot of tv shows. Ugly Betty, Desperate Housewives, Heroes, Gossip Girl, One Tree Hill, 30 rock and Scrubs and also Friends. These shows give entertainment to the viewers, all great in their own way, usually a little lesson behind each episode.

One Tree Hill season 5 has just started again and it came with a good season premiere. There are a number of things highlighted in the show, have integrity as a person and remember to stay true to who you are. It's your life, take a stand, feel that you're under control? it's time to stand up. You might lose your dream, but you don't lose everything, start fighting again. That's why I love tv shows, so much entertainment and lessons to learn. And not to forget the fashion too :P. I love to watch what the female characters wear and from there I observe what fashion trend is up overseas.

All tv shows always have a lesson to learn, by noticing each character in the show you can see their personality and how they grow.Sometimes people around you give advices that you can't seem to accept and tv shows can reach out to you when you're in that moment. It's good to reflect on what you watch and what you learn from it. Life is always full of ups and downs, so we face it straight on and keep living!!

P.S: I Love You

Saying I love you at the right time brings about a different feeling in the heart. It brings meaning into people's life too, it gives hope and knowing that you're being loved gives people the will to live on. P.S I Love You is a book I read written by Cecilia Ahern. It's a chic flit that I started to read after I got bored of fantasy books, you know the same old same old? Warriors, hunters , priests , a party grouped together to kill/destroy/eliminate the bad guy/evil demon/evil person. Sometimes it's hunting treasures, sometimes it's war.

This book that I read made me realised something that I haven't thought about. First the summary of the book. It's about this woman who married her childhood sweetheart and it was a happy marriage that did not last long , why? Because the husband discovered he had leukemia, of course in the end he died. The story doesn't end with him dying, after some time, the wife still misses him alot and always stayed at home, not wanting to live life without him, not wanting to be happy without him. Her birthday arrives and he sent her a cake along with a letter. Inside the letter, he told her that he has a plan for her and one letter will arrive every month.

The husband is so thoughtful to think of all these even when he was struggling with cancer. Every month the letters came and telling her to do somethings, things that made her happy and reminded her that he is always with her and that she can move on and be happy again. It also told her that doing all those things will not make her forget about him. The book ended with her being able to get on her feet again and continue to love him and live life. Ps: all letters end with ps: i love you.

After reading this book, I thought of things such as life comes and goes easily so we should live life fullest every second. Appreciate and show as much love as you can to be people around you. Even better if you can show love to people who need that love too. Sometimes I know I neglect the people I love and often disappoint them. I really hope that this year will be a better year and that I will learn from my mistakes and make them proud. The thing that I need the most this year is optimism which I always seem to lack of. Thinking negative for me is so easy and always worrying on things that are the least of my problems too. When I think negatively I affect the people around because it's so hard for them to encourage me when I shoot them back with negativity. I really thank you all that has put up with this from me. I will try to change and let's all hope for the best for the people we love.

Remember to say I love you with all your heart at every moment that counts in life!!

Unpredictable

Quote of the week:

There is a purpose behind every problem

Life as always is unpredictable, so many things can happen in a short matter of time. Problems arising are the most unpredictable, that's why projects have risk analysis :P. I'm not having problems but I used to have it and that quote meant a lot for me. Whatever comes, there is a reason. We should always learn from all of it, no matter what happens, we shouldn't feel discouraged in life.

Another quote :

There is always a way out.

By knowing the purpose we can easily find the way out. Both quotes related closely. I learn so much life's lesson from the Bible, from devotional books, from self-help books. I used to be very negative and I'm glad I worked through it. Whatever problem I had encounter, I found the purpose through time and through time I walk my way out with help :D.

A song that inspires : If you believe by Rachel Lampa

I close my eyes,
And even when I'm sleeping
I'm alright,
'Cause You are in my life.

Once upon a time,
I only imagined this
And now You're mine.
Wished for you so hard.
Prayed that You'd find me;
Baby you're here today,
Here to remind me:

If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe, oh oh...

Everybody said
That I was a fool to think
That we could be; (Everybody said that...)
That I couldn't get my heart out of my head
But they just didn't see;
No, they just could not have
The feeling that You give,
The places that You go...

If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That when you want something enough,
That it can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be...
If you believe.

Never wished for material things;
Never needed wind in my wings.
I never wished for anything but You...oh!
I can't explain it,
Someone just told me,
"Go where your heart is,
You'll never be lonely."

If you believe that dreams come true,
There's One that's waiting there for you.
'Cause I believed when I saw You
That (when you believe) when You want Someone enough,
Then they can't escape Your love.
There is nothing in the world that cannot be,
If you believe.
Believe, believe, believe, ooh...

Never stop believing!

How far can Faith bring you?

Faith a strong and powerful word. A gift of the spirit. Faith has brought me far and I know it will bring me further than I will imagine. Many points in life we need faith, faith in God, faith in yourself, faith in others.

Faith is associated with trust, you have faith in someone, you trust that person too. Just as we have faith in God, we put all our trust to Him. Lately I have been having trouble considering my FYP title, I have heard many opinions concerning it, those opinions have gave me a rerun thought on the title. Suddenly I felt that I couldn't do that project, amidst all the negative thoughts, a strong and positive thought hit it and smashed it to pieces."I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me"

I found the faith that I had for the project. I had it when the idea came, I trust that I could do it. Just by the words of others I put myself down, how silly I am. Now that I got it all clear again, I will put to the test my faith in God that I can succeed in this project. With the blessing of God, I put in my hard work, I put in the energy that God provided for me.

I truly believe that I can do it, even if it might seem impossible, I will make the possible. Sometimes we human have big dreams, big goals. We can't just sit there and wait for it to come, we have to give it all we got, if it was meant to be then it will come with the effort you have paid for that dream.

Another wonderful line from the bible , "If ye have faith as a grain of mustard seed....nothing shall be impossible unto you". We must believe that every problem has a solution, do not lose hope and keep having faith. Faith will take you to a long journey, it will bring you to many places. Just believe and you can do the impossible.